I was a young girl… I wanted to make career and the reason was my family was broken. My dad was an alcoholic and my mom tries to pay bills and feed us. It was an interesting time and experience in my life.
I knew that I need a good education to have a well-payed job to be an independent. And in the scenario, if my husband will be and alcoholic I can be independent and feed my kids easily.
Nothing about “who I am?”, “what I like?”, “what I want?”, “what’s in my heart?”.
And now! 25 years, master degree, well-payed job, career, marriage and 3 kids later I stop hurting myself!
I’m done with an IT. IT isn’t the thing I like / love or can’t live without. I was there, I was good but it’s time to move on. To do what I love, to find what I love, to be with my family and don’t think about “what if!?”.
I’m here and I’m free. Finally…..
“But life isn’t just fun and games!!” some say. But how do you know that!? Maybe for me, it is. I’ll figure that out. By myself, right now, right?!
Ilze
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Throughout my career, I looked at all the things I was capapble of doing and chose the one that paid the most and best enabled me to do the things I really wanted to do (that meant six very different jobs in 40 years although the last one, in IT, lasted 19 years).
Too many people have to spend their lives doing jobs they don’t enjoy, just to pay the bills and to have a short holiday. If you are able to support the life you want with a job you enjoy, go for it!
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I will figure that out soon. 🙂 IT. I guess most of the people are working in IT 🙂
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May be this is the time you have to give yourself. May be this paves way to a new chapter in your life. The one you live for yourself. I came out of a job in marketing I was doing very well in because it did not make me happy for even a single day for 8 years ( except pay days 😉 ) and now here I am carving something new and I feel scared but I feel alive and happy.
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I’m a bit scared too! Thank you for your comment. I hope everything for me and for you will work out. The main thing is to be happy and alive.
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Yes. So true. And we just got to keep going.
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Don’t give up! Learn from failures!
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It sounds like you are on the right track. And it’s great that you sound so positive, even if days ahead might be scary.
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My husband is a great support! I’m not alone. I thought I am, but actually he is the one who encouraged me to change work 7-8 years ago when BOSS was too bossy! I stayed in that work for 2,5 years and every single day I had something I hated…I didn’t know that I’m the only who can decide or change my life :). And after I quit that bossy BOSS my life felt so good. I found another well-payed job easily. All you have to do is listen to your self… 🙂
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So very, very true.
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Love it Ilze! Follow your heart! It’s the only way to live. ❤
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Thank you! The feeling that you don’t know if it will work or not is.. MAGICAL! It makes me feel alive!
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Good on you! The time has come to take charge of your own destiny! Many of us had jobs that paid the bills and put food on the table but thst was it. Do what ever gives you joy.
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Thank you. Now I can’t wait to get home and start doing things that I like. Also, living in caravan here in my home town with girls is easier than at home.
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